HEED♥

♫ Wednesday, April 30, 2008 2:17 PM

MT paper was a total bleaaargh.
letter writing was alright.
but compo ? i totally had no ideas.
i chose qns 6 wich require a story ending wif sumthg dissapointing.
wht i cn write about ? exams ? failing ? i wasnt able to think.
damn.Break was where Gfs and me tried to squeeze history notes in our limited memory mind.
we were like talking on our own.
and loudly,it was.hahah.
Mr Siva chased us away frm the canteen.hmmph.
"cher i wan sit in ur car.very hot leh."
like real,he handed over hes car key.
"go ah.but u know how to open or not.."
"i know.take drills,scredrivers.open lor."
showed me that irritated face.
"unlocked my car !"
HAHAHAHHA ! so sat sumwhere chilling.
history was anoder bleaaaargh.
SBQ was okay.Structured was fine.
except for when they asked "how far do you agree.."
i forgot hw to ans such qns..anoder big DAMN !
but manageable.short answered was rubbish.
i couldnt ans sia.siao hor.
gotta know sum farnie ans for ths qns.
"Name 3 people who land on the mouth of Spore River on 29 Jan 1918."
Farnie ans :
1) Sir stamford raffles,indian sepoy mutiny,DAVID BECKHAM. =D
2) Sir STAMFORD,sir THOMAS,sir RAFFLES.
i laughed my ass out to knw sum wrote that cse they were totally blanked.
hahahahah. 2) ans totally crank me.
aint that raffles full name ? sheesh !
aftwhich.slacked awhile before heading back home.
no mood to hang ard the fact that the weather aint cooling.
hahah. =D

Jyeaaah ! no sch tmr ! =D
Maths paper 1 and Geog on friday ):

Yours Truly,
Heed

♫ Tuesday, April 29, 2008 5:15 PM

History and MT paper 1 is tmr):

nw im so discouraged by wht i gt for hist ca2 ppr sehh.
16/25. ):
homec got 32/40.
weee woooo yeaaah !
HAHAH.
kay so sch was alright.
went to sch alone as i wasnt in the mood.
so its btr off witout nat husband cse i scared i vent at her.
HAHAH.
before recess i had the worst chestpain ever sia.
i was having headache.and feeling like vomitting.
so during mt i vomitted. idk why. maybe bcse i din eat in the morning.
Got 58/80 for mt ppr.
very nt well done ohkay.
hist lesson was self revision.
but me,atikah and eika grouped and studied.
funny sia eika.
under foood wht listen listen xD
aft sch,plan to stdy.
bt instead,gfs and me ate non stop plus slacked.
so go hme early to nt watse much time.
hahahah.now imma bathe bathe bathe ! (:

Yours Truly,
Heed

♫ Monday, April 28, 2008 9:08 PM

IM SUPER HAPPY TODAAAAAAY !=D

i tried to be early for Nat Husband.
but i was still late.
today is hell of a day maan !
sch assembly was a public apology of sum incident hpn last friday.
i was like damn impressed by them boys to make a public apology on their own accord
for their mistakes luh.
and mr siva is oh so right.
once a mistake is adknowledge and taken responsibility of, theres no reason for us to not accept them back aye ? gee.
as i was sitting and listening there,i dinnoe whether to luff or to jst wipe them smiles off.
sheesh !
in sch today,i had lots of speaking error yo.
kan atikah ? hahahahah.
EL was a day of ratatouille.
Sci was going thru paper.
and i swear i cn jst break down dere. bleaaaaargh.
Music was free time.
maths was weeeeeee wooooooooo yeaaaaaaah ! =D
" im giving out ur CA2 paper."
i was like " ah damn. i dun wish to take it back sia."
cse frm wht i rmbered,i did it badly.
so as ms gan called me.
i walked to her and smiled wide gilerpig.
and she gave me tht u-failed-again look.
i looked at my effing marks.
and i swear my eyes were wide open.dumbfounded.
speechless.disbelieved.
finally,its nomore 25-28 range.
i got a 31/50 for myself baby !
"finally,u gave me no rubbish in exams ah."
"jyeah jyeah !"
"good that u get a full mark for graph.work on ur algebra ok.cse if u flunk ur graph during mye,
u need algebra.good improvement."
yeah yeah.maybe i got tht freaking mark bcse of graph.
but hell,its still maths. && yeah yeah , imma work for my algebra.
and reduce my careless mistakes ! ishk ! (:
i was like super hyper.
i wanted to teared la ! i mean to sum out there,it maybe nothing.
but to me,its a BIG F uhh.
my hardwork finally paid off. yes, i can do it.
nothing is impossible.just do it =D
annd finally,im nt scared to pass my maths paper to mum and dad =D
nw i finally understand :
1 ) in order to succeed,you have to let urself taste failing.
2) the process of success is bitter,but the product of success is sweet !
3) make ur failure a learning journey.
jyeah jyeah. i still rmb my group leader,in camp,wht she said to me.
the real meaning of sucess is wen uve failed.
and frm there,u learn frm it,be resilient and work real hard till u rly succeed.
wen u do,thts success.
Fy, failing doesnt makes u a failure.
but quitting do.
dun quit and go go go ! if i cn do it, i bet u do. =D
so afterwich was art.
art was superb great ! not.
i was half asleep but ms heng was besid eme so fathope.
she talked to me about eye exam wen mye is nt over.
" ure such a nice girl to talk to."
"oh yeah yeah sure ! thank u ! "
hahahah. ok shes nt bad,cse she commend me.
HAHAHAH ! xD
aft sch,groupstudy wif Gfs in the canteen till 6pm.
i was screaming cse i swear,i was stressed out,Gfs. (:
not bcse i was irritating u guys.hahah.
otw hme wif Nat Husband was loved.
i switched on musics. and was irritatingly dancing.
den a NS man walked pass and luff at me !
so i was like , ps ps.
i ballet thru ts blk wer a chinese lady saw and luff oso sia !
Nat was luffing till sweating eh !
HAHAH ! reached hme and slept. nw, im waiting for my brain to work again
for science . ):

imma make sure, i work towards NO Cs and Ds (:

and ths effing chestpain plus difficulty in breathing frquency is killing me slowly ! totally eff. ):

Yours Truly,
Heed

♫ Sunday, April 27, 2008 5:07 PM

Yest was a day of study wif gfs.
woke up in the morning to help mama out at shop.
so abg wan was there and crap crap talk talk.
hahaha. =D
ard 1pm went home cse miting gfs at 2pm.
got rdy all and met farna and Nat husband(:
went to the lib and it was eff pack la.
so we got a place.SPECIAL! at 1st storey.
hahaha.nad came nt long aft.
messed the place as if its our hse liddat.
Jen joined us too.
so managed to finish up parts of Maths Rev paper.
ard 5pm i think,decided to go and eat !
so went to Macdee and ate.
went hme aft buying abg sum food.
abaaaang is such a fuss !
hahah.mentang mentang just got discharged.
handicapp ! =D
nightfalls and watch MAN U against CHELSEA match.
abg fren came.
they were effing farnie la.
had fun wit dem.
maid eh ? dawg. (:
2-1 la seh !
and MAN U eff lost !
nw chelsea and Man u bth got 81 point ! ):
the fact dat Man U have to win win win laaaa !
so they keep criticising my C.ronaldo !
so i went " he called me.he say he no motivation tht i wasnt there."
hHAHAHA ! cam pa eh dayah(:
APM was a total rubbish.
except for the part Aliff and taufik was performing.
hahaha ! aku was screaming like stoopid =D
Today.
just got back hme from miting sis at cwp.
bought my food.
bought munchy donuts.
bought berries and cookies !
damn its sooo effing yummy laaaa. =D
and cheaper den BNJ ! hahah.
i was craving for ice cream.
cnt afford BNJ so macdee ice cream oso cn ahh !
hahahha !
History and MT paper 1 next la sehh.
gaaaah !

i miss caaaaaaaaaaaaamp ! ):

annd imma work hard hard to be the __________ student of that ________ school (:
FY ! shhh (:
motivated & inspired.

Yours Truly,
Heed

♫ Friday, April 25, 2008 10:23 PM

ONE paper done-ed.

woke up got ready and met Nat husband.=D
headed to sch.
English paper 1 was alright.
but i think i screwed it up.
i feel like writing rubbish instead of compo.
hahaha.
English paper two was ok ok.
&& never in my schooling life tht i spend alot of time on english paper.
i fnished it in time seh.
maybe bcse i realised i did it so cautiously.
and the fact i was dozing off.xD
but overall it was okay.
aft sch,Gfs,syuk and amirul wif megat,off we went to sit sumwhere.
we played games.
0-0-7 BANG BANG ! =D
den ard 2pm headed to mit eika for the MOE interview.
inteview was fun uhh !
and the validator mistook me for a chinese girl ?
bacenn.
"so do u like ur coach ?"
i ans.
"what cca are u in ?"
"netball."
"no wonder ure as dark as charcoal."
i was like eh bacenn ! hahaha
kay aft wich walk home wif earnest.
he walk walk me home cse husband couldnt wait for me.
hahahah ! reached hme and slept.
i srsly dun wish like waking up.
HAHA !tired giler nye.
kay uh.nk cont sleep uh i guess.
hahah ! gdnyte and off !

Yours Truly,
Heed

♫ Thursday, April 24, 2008 10:25 PM

MYE starts TOMORROW :D

unknowingly,mye starts tmr.
not in a week.not in a mth.
and im nt done wif revisions.
srsly,baek uhh dayah.=D

tmr interview wif the MOEs.
damn,meaning cmg back aft paper by 215pm.

sch was okaye just now.
revisions and revisions.
filing of papers.
corrections.
MT and English tht was.
Geog was the same thou.
Maths was all about more prac.
and mr richard took almost 20 mins to get me to understand chapter one.
map scale. =D
i srsly dun understnd tht freaking topic uhh !
Music was test and i swear i love my group.
HAHAH! we were darn funny.
aft school stayed back to arranged tables and chairs and clean up the class.
den Gfs headed to Nad hse to study.
yest study at nad hse was loved gilerpig nye.
HAHAH ! had loats of fun wif gfs ah.
tdy too.but i had the worse stomachache ah.
so had so many runs.
went hme at 7pm.reached hme and here i am =D

me and enemy are now friends.
"to defeat ur enemy is to befriend them"
true enough(:
sitting bside enemy is no longer a pain in class.
cse nw we exchnge laughters and jokes.
enemy is gd at a subjt im weak at.
while im gd at the subjt enemy is weak at.
so we guide,nomore fite and criticise.
hahahahah.now i love my enemy,friend=D

Gfs is being loved dearly.
more and more each day.
never fails to put a smile on my face.
thou there might be arguments here and dere.
nevertheless,keep the love going(:

its all over.and fullstop.

imma nid to push myself to the extreme wer i get no Cs or Ds ths time(:

Yours Truly,
Heed

♫ Monday, April 21, 2008 10:30 PM

yest was rubbish !
i dun wish to state wat i did.
cse its simply an un-comfortable day wer i just go.
" i wanna go homeeeeeeeee ! " =D

the oni best part yest was sky gazing.
as i was walking back i love the moon gilerpig ah.
plug my ear wif earpiece and like emo-ing liddat.
hahaha.got hme and sky gaze den slept.

Today is the best cse i gotta meet Gfs !
i was late in meeting Nat Lao Gong in the morning.
ahhahaha ! =D
sumhow,today very hot gilerpig nye.
sch was alright uhhs.
History was kinda fast thou.
CE best.cse i sat wif atikaaah and eika.
hahah.PE best gilerpig nye !
wanted to play soccer but tdy no girl soccer.
tk best ah tu.so we played floorball.
it was crapped play ah ! HAHAHA.
so got changed and recess.
lalalalaaa back to class and maths.
maths was jst rev and i got bored anw.haha.
so english was next and got out of class early.
Netball match was next.
WRSS vs BEDOK SOUTH.
26-24.
&& i swear,it was rubbish !
thou we won.we slacked gilerpig cse of long period of no trainings.
i was dissapointed at my performance.
but jyeah,we are gonna improve,like always kann ? =P
so the journey was a v long one.
i guess bcse of the weather,we were feeling damn lethargic.
everyone slept in the bus.
reached and slacked in the canteen and i cnt stop going on saying.
"this is rubbish !"
AHAHAH ! u knw i knw they dont knw ah. =D
sent nad hme as she injure her leg den me and nat head hme.
and ive jst finished those piles of homeworks and rev for tmr test.
argh ! MYE starts ths FRIDAY ):
aku lom prepare.
serioushsit ah.
DAYAH MAIN KAYSIAO !

If you just realize what I just realized,
Then we'd be perfect for each other,
And we'll never find another.
Just realize what I just realized,
We'd never have to wonder,
If we missed out on each other now.
- Realize , Colbie Colliat .

Yours Truly,
Heed

♫ Sunday, April 20, 2008 12:23 PM

Hey hey hey ! =P
i had lotsa fun yest okaye ?
ACJC CARNIVAL.
woke up as early as 5am to pack things.
bathed all and clock strikes 6am.
to knw that nat baby bubbled.
ended up meeting her at 630am.
make our way to adm macdee and met nad,zhong wei and mich.
ate breakfast den headed to jurong east to meet the rest.
there,we met ths grp of guys.
fullstop.
alighted at buona vista.
and the guys alighted too.
"eh.turun jgk.sibuk ah!"
we ignored ah.met coach and headed to ACJC.
wen we were getting ready,saw them again.
so everyone was like.
"fate kaper ? hahaha ! HELLOH BOYS !"
"hey girls ! we meet again eh ?"
HAHAH ! kay fullstop.
so we enjoyed like many2 ah.
we jst had fun having matches wif aunties.
they rock big time sia.
&& he was effing sia !
kan farna ?! =P
had fun wif coach too.
we knw wht she knws tht they dun knw. =P
so wen we were heading to buona vista,walked back wif the guys.
coincidence miting again,or wht ? tskk.
so the rest went for a lunch wif dem and me and zhong wei headed hme.
Reached hme to find shaniq under my blk waiting.
HAHA ! god knws hw much i miss that ass. =D
so got hme.sis got hme.
got rdy and off to Fy hse.
were having kenduri arwah,which we missed.
and celbrating the april babys bday.
like always,i wasnt spared frm being bashed.
3 rounds of it sehh ! 1st was wif cakes.
tht one basic ah can wash.
den bell very good ! go mixed ingredients.
and it smells like expired milk ! eeeew la seh.
shaniq oso good ! brought me to the lift step wanna sharing moment.
den suddenly bell cum frm bhind and bashed me wif their ' special ingred '
went ard to hugg aunts.
HAHA ! bathed and as i was lying on shaniq , abg go pour me the lychee drink.
stoopid ! bathe oredy u knw !
so jst wiped and we chilled till nightfalls.
went hme and opened pressie.hahaha.
thank u many many much ! =D
it was dearly loved.
&& Fy bell and shaniq and those who bashed me, just watch out ah ! =D
slept soon aft i yawn big time.
HAHA. aku love yst many2 .(:

Yours Truly,
Heed

♫ Friday, April 18, 2008 12:13 AM

Yesterday was alright i guess.
chinese class was the best.
annd i punch farna !
HAHAH ! it was an accident annd IM SORRY !
it goes ths way.
we played a game.&& i was so enthu.
din realised her head was near me,i raised my hand so hard dat i punch her.
lucky no bruise or whtever.
or else,dayah all the best.
HAHAHA !
go hme and cool kaper ?
slept from 5pm till 11pm.
i was very very TIRED. :/

Today headed to school for one reason to look forward to.
away from home. :/
i dun wanna runaway. but i wanna get away so far away.
den shout the hell out of me.
and cum back. cse im getting agitated all over.
and very very LETHARGIC. ):
so sch was alright today.
PE did shuttle run.
MT was of cse the best.always la eh !
DNT was finally not bored.
cse we've started on workshops.
i slept during theory.
"whats with u getting tired in cls nowadays ?"
"err.oni if u could stop being a long winded ?HEHEH ! kidding ! idk !(:"
i receive tht like err 533665477 times a day from same few chers.
kay i srsly am dozing off in cls.
Sci was next.hw i wish electricity would be nt so confusing.
i went " ARGH ! damn u topic."
HAHAH ! aku tk phm abit pon seh !
after school was napha.
ths yr was a big improvement uhhs !
believe or not.
i got all A for all 5 stations !
WOOHOOO ! boastful uhh ! hahahah !
i aimed for an A all the way cse i knew i had to.
or else Ms gan muke senget. =D
sit and reach and sit up was my weakest.
during sit and reach.all i could tink of was to get more than 43cm.
i closed my eyes and go " ahhhhhhh !"
ms choo " goood ! 45cm,"
aku shout like crazy ! HAHAHA !
sit up did 32 ! HAHA !
no big deal it may seem.
broad jump had a big slacked.
189cm sia ?
shuttle forget.
Oh yeah ! inclined pull up was another weakness.
since and A mean more than 16.
i struggled gilerbabi till 17.
HAHAHAHAH ! pathetic one wich make a big difference la okay !
afterwich met coach aft a v v long tym ah !
me and nat kecohh.
"coaaaaaaaaach ! we miss you alot la ! u tues bubbled us sia !"
"wer got ! ms gan say trng cancelled.so nt my problem u miss me."
HAHAHAHA ! played a game wif sec ones.
wah giler.aft days of no trng.
skills like kana roast.
ths saturday having carnival at AJC.
cant wait uhh ! =D

when u did,i hope u dun.
cse sumhow,it felt really different.
i dun hav tht feeling i had.
it was not the same. :/
and i know that u know tht we knw tht they dont.
and we know that u know that i know that they dont.

"face the reality,even how unpleasant it is." - anonymous.

Yours Truly,
Heed

♫ Tuesday, April 15, 2008 9:08 PM

*Flip that middle finger.*
realise it,not all cn accept the kind of person u are.
and knw it,words can really affect others feeling okaye ?
think twice ah bfore any shits cum out frm ur mouth !
srsly,u brought us dwn.
nt oni dat,u spoil my fucking,already bad day.
aku dissapointed.):

"what kind of a chairperson are u ?"
damn,those words hit me like the tsunami wave.
nt that imma curse tht particular t'cher,bt im accepting it as a compliment.
like srsly,it gave me a great impact to reflect.
annd i knw,ive nt rch the standard and sumhw hav nt done my job at any well level.
but nt tht im nt trying,but i receive no co-operation. :/
they dunno wt im gg thru as a chairprsn sak.
watever they do,im part of it.
watever happens,im the first person being qns-ed.
pressurised sakk.
they no ntg but just to cont their shits.
i tried,bt noone understnd.
i almost broke dwn yest.
annd tdy,i feel tht i jst wanna take out that tie,un-pin tht yellow badge and hand it over.
srsly,for once i hpe to jst have the cls to co-operate.
for once sakk. D:

&& to knw tht the good have gone bad,sumhw i feel the world is turning upside dwn la.
all the best.
theres ntg that i cn do to you anymre.
as a friend,we adviced.
up to u to heed.it has bcum an addiction aye ?
dun wry.we are still here.

mths since the last time u contacted me.
nvr did i ever stp wishing tht u would atleast msg me.
and nw to receive news abt you,i jst feel like killing u.
im dissapointed uhhs):

Haiish.The day is already quite bad kaperr ?
bsides tht,Gfs shine it la wey !
headed to sch alone.
haha ! sume buey pe on tuesdays ! =D
had Dnt and homec test.
shall say its okaye ? manageable uhh.
den MT and cikgu missed us la woi !
"hie cikgu !"
"eh,rindu cikgu ke ?"
"da sdh.jgn nk deny lagi uh pls.(:"
HAHA ! den me and nat wanted to move at the back.
"eh awak awak awak,duduk dpn."
"aww ! okay okay !"
HAHAH ! see see ! =D
kay shut up sakk heed.
Science was okay ahh.
Hist missed alot as had to mit up wif Mr Eric for watever je la eh.
CE roslan took our cls.
hehehe ! kay shh.
aft sch end,found out no netb.
bt had our own self trng b4 the rain starts to drop.
prac for Napha.aku power kaper ! =D
headed hme right aft it as theres piles of hwk.

aku ngan nat geram ah.):

pls continue nomore,for good. :/

feelings do chnge fast. haiish.
&& sumhw i feel,its nt working out.D:

i feel no existence.)=

Yours Truly,
Heed

♫ Monday, April 14, 2008 7:56 PM

HAPPY BELATED BURFDAY TO ME.=D

sumhow,sumone forgot my burfdaaaay !
lalalalal ! =D

aye aye !
SUNDAY was a day out wif fyLOVE !
went to buy school shoes and went to eat my fav food wit her.
den we headed to the lib and borrowed sum books.
den to Starbucks to get myself Ice Chocolate blaaah and herself Chocolate blaaah.
AHAHA ! den we went to cwp and she got me a reaally preetaye necklace.
thanks alot ! i love ur pressie okayy !
walked around annd i saw ths beauty adidas water bottle.
&& imma get it real soon !(:
walked around and headed to my home.
slacked and chilled.
&& i did lotsa confessions din i ?
i hope ure not bored.
hey thanks.HAHAHAHA !
recognised the lyrics ? (:
thanks anw for being dere,always.
at night met up wif boyf !
annd sumhow,had a great time wit him.
he handed me over my pressie bt din let me take a look at it.
den we sat around.den he brought me to adm and bought me B&J.
hahah ! i was like,mcm tau je !
HAHAHA ! so we sat and ate it.
&& boyf was great ! made me covered in ice creams.
HAHAH ! so went hme and rushed to mit mama and papa for supper.
i was bloated like rly.
headed hme to check out my pressie and damn boy,u srsly dun have to go on to such expenses.
but,i love the green adidas watch u gave !
hahaha.thank u for the pressie and B&J.
nt BJ okayye ! HAHAHA ! ishk !
reached hme.dad massage my leg.
&& it wasnt painful,but ticklish !
HAHAHA !

So today was great !
wif lovely friends !
went to school and ferst lesson turned me off.
i was v sleepy la seh !
and sumhw had the worst stomachache ever.
plus fever.
but i was being hyper to stay strong.
cheychey.
Maths was a bore.
i hate graph laaaaaa.
Art was the best,yet NOT.
my thumbdrive was corrupted and the artpiece i produced cnnt be opened.
so had re-do.but i managed to finish it up in 30mins.
cool or wht dayah ! =D
den i chilled and opened my email.
den to frenster and guess wht ?
SUPERMAAAN found my frenster and comment me !
i jumped for joy gilerbabi nye.HAHAH !
"atikah ! Jonathan la sial ! WOOOOHOOO !"
"eh bastard ! kasi akuuuu !"
hahahah ! && i went ard to spread to Gfs.
hehehehe ! den had to go for Oral den did CIP.
i think i flunked oral.damn ):
For CIP ,i was the Supervisor of the Supervisor ahh !
Sumhow,ms gan was hey yo hey yo gereks uhh td ! (:
But,i rly wish she could cut down on beating me.
lolls.Mr roslan is loved more every single day uhhs ! =D
aftwich,had great belated bas frm Gfs.
THANKS ALOT SAKK !
brought me sumwer.
and witout me nowing ? they throw like ALOT of flour.
best ! so went hme being stared and luffed at .
"wah ! got party ah ? cute leh u."-and uncle.
"well,sumhow yeah ?hahaha ! thank u ! u too uncle !" - me.
hahahah.kay ah Gfs.
U guys are the best ever frens i could ever wished for.
Yes Nat,aku more than bersyukur okaye ?!
for everythng,THANKS ALOT.

aku suker Atikah pressie too !
sayang kau !

&& to all who wished,presents msges and everythng la !
THANKS ALOT.
much appreciated and loved.
best burfday,i must say(:

Yours Truly,
Heed

♫ Saturday, April 12, 2008 9:36 PM

IM BACK FROM CAMP.
sumhow glad,sumhow i miss Jonathan !
HAHA ! damn my fav faci.
MY SUPERMAAAAAAN !
kkay so camp was great.i learnt alot of things and enjoyed alot !

DAY 1
headed to school wif Gfs.
reached and FAST FORWAAAARD.
reached Labrador Park.
the place was a old school i must say.
&& imma CAVENAGH-ians.=D
went to our bunk and i slept in the bunk as Rif.
like thanks !
lunch and proceed to ferst activity which was Amazing Race in Chinatown.
The place was like great.
But hell,noone knw it well.haha.
so afterwich back to camp for icebreaker games which was enjoyable.
Me and Syed was the Overall Ic.
At night was full of campfire preparation and more games !
The group was definitely kind of DEAD for day 1.

BUTTTT.

Day 2
woke up early 5 for prayers.
den we chilled waiting for assemble.
day started wif breakfast den Treasure Hunt at Esplanade.
It was more well known and finished faster den Day 1.
back to campsite and do more Cheers.
kkay i admit was the Hyper-active one.
HAHA ! i influence-d and sumhow Cavenagh was wonderful on Day 2!
I lost my freaking voice):
lolls.After Lunch.
Telematch was next and it rocks the day.
i had many many funnn !
The blinfold thng got me in real MUDD mess.
Den Human catapult brought up our teamwork.
Water Transport was great splashing time !
HAHA ! annd the faci was like disturbing us.
&& dear Akira was throwing me like ALOT of FLOUR.
great kaaan ! Olympic was the best okayy !
we had to hop on mud to the other end .
sumhow all grp did the same and we had to hav 2 volunteers to roll on mudd.
Elvin volunteered and pulled me wif him.
i was like WTH ?
so i was like one pig rolling to mudd wif rif and Elvin !
HAHAHA ! Afterwich had a good decent bath.
Campfire was next annd i had another wonderful time !
Mr siva and Mr Clement was like for a moment rock the place.
hahahah ! The seniors was dere and they were great.
&& atikaaaaah go tell him this.
"Hey Hunk,i wanna tell you that I WANNA BE UR GIRL !"
HAHAHA ! xD
Cavenagh had the loudest cheer okayy !
see ah who lead.=D
It ended and we washed up and all.
Chilled wif Gfs.Jonathan joined.
MY SUPERMAAAAN.
hahaha.
Overall,Day 2 was the best !

Day 3.
woke up early in morning again.
Packed bag a lil bit.
Had breakfast.&& i was touched by wat Gfs had do for me la !
i wanted to cry okay.
Sumhow we finish breakfast fast and chilled outside the canteen.
the sang me a loud advanced Burfday Song and caught the attention of Hot wayne, Cool Akira and dear supermaaaaaaaan Jonathan.
den got me to stand on a chair and got the whole campers to sang me a burfday song.
paisehh okay ! but i was rly touched.thanked dem and got dwn.
den yeah yeah.i was sabo-ed la !
Thanks alot sia ! HAHAH .
kkay.i mean it.
Gfs,aku love krg many many sia ! :D
Jonathan kept going " Burfday Girl oi ! HAHHAHA !"
had to entertain and be entertain la kaan !
Afterwich was area cleaning.
Jonathan very good ! giv my grp clean canteen.
which was the easiest.
hes reason :
"thank hidayah ! cse she burfday so i gd giv her easy task. BUT she must clean the most ok ?"
HAHAHA ! jyeaaah aku love die !
hahas.after cleaning had many many fun while waiting for bus to arrive.
bus arrive board and head to sch.
Facis followed.Bid goodbye to Dear Jonathan and off wif Gfs.
Day 3 was great too.annd sumhow i wished i was back in camp again.
Well,aft it Gfs put our bag at Nad cribs.
headed to court and played soccer wif mif,faisal C.ronaldo.
bullied okay.lllalaaaa go back to Nad Crib at ard 5pm and ate.
chilled at her room and eventually witout knowing i slept.
hahah ! at 7pm woke up and headed home.
&& here i am !
freshly bathed.xD

kkay so overall again.
camp was really a fun thing.
Wif Facis.&& i had a GREAT Grp Leader wich taught me alot.
On leadership.On many things ah !
I LOVE MUDD.
I learnt to be SHAMELESS.
&& i overcomed my FEAR to talk and be hyper infront of many pairs of eyes due to ths camp.
Like JYEAH ! aku hyper giler ah.
hahaha.&& farna,camp is over.
u cn have him back.hahah !
Elvin is all ur back.
But hey,i had jolly great time scandaling wif hym.
HAHAHAHAH !
damn sia,aku rindu SUPERMAAAAAAAN.(:

Yours Truly,
Heed

♫ Wednesday, April 09, 2008 6:52 PM

Yest was one of a happy day.
sheesh.match pstponed sumhow.
annd so we waited for hours for ntg.
headed to gym for a team talk abt prev game.
thou we lost but coach says it was a gd fight.
and we lost wif a fighting spirit.
den she says estimating for nxt yr B div der'll be 6 frm each team.
damn,pos are so tight.
and 5 mths down selection.long way to go yet doesnt mean slacking.
esp fitness.my weakest pt sakk.
5 mths is all i need(:
&& i agreee on wht she say tht sumtym we play shit and sumtym we jst play damn well.
"Any cmmnt i gave,dun take it to the heart.but reflect.i mean no offence but to help.
Like hidayah,she totally switched off like a zombie on YCK match.
But on East Spring match,she played so well.Both as a attacker and a defender."
i was like.WOW ! ahahha.
bt everyone received their own cmmnts.
annd sumhow i nid to buck up on fitness.
kay enuff of netb.aft team talk headed to coffeeshop for dinner and off hme.
Today was a day of FUNN !
day started wif EL wer i slacked abit.den maths.
PE was funn gilerr.
since we've ran the mass run,me,nad and nat totally slacked.
we ran abit den walked all the way.
we completed one round of brisk walk den
"Ms gan ! we complete 2 round rdy ! wah tired sia !"
"ah farnie."
HAHAH !
"Listen2 da lari tkyah lari lagi pe members."-mr roslan.
HAHAHAH ! we were like WOW! ah he talk liddat.
wat oni.sumhow EE Leong slacked too.
Razip was like shaking his head.haha.
MT was next and cikguu was loved !
Annd secret shared.
SHE LOVE ME NAD AND NAT ALOTT ! xD
"besok da gi camp eh ?"
"ah2.jangan rindu k."
she smiled widely !
"tk rindu ah.miss je.besok malam jumaat tau.hati2 tau.ape2 bau tkmo tegur."
kay best ah cikgu ! =D
GS was all about electricals wich doesnt intrest me abit.
bell rang went for break.den CONVERSATIONAL CHINESE !
fun gilerr.we were like P Ramlee wanna learn hw to read.
hahahah.
okk tmr is CAMP DAY !
annd we are very very excited-o !
butbut , imma miss my C.Ronaldo Sg version=D
Okk shuddup.aft sch me,nad,nat farna rif and faisal headed to CWP.
went to popular.bought sum clothes.den headed to BK to eat.
saw farna scandal ! AHAHAH !
NURFAAAAAAAAA =D
sat for a long time den walked home.
had loads of luffsters la weyy !
aku sayang korang bnyak2 sakk.
lebih dri aku sayang C.Ronaldo aku.xD

Yours Truly,
Heed

♫ Sunday, April 06, 2008 9:36 PM

i hate abg for scaring the hell out of me today.
he keep sneaking den go BOOOO !
babi.
hahahahhaha.
&& i love fy for spending time wimme today.
aku sayang kau la !
"imma free-gift kid,annd shes the discount kid.=D"
HAHAHAH !
basically why im updating is im feeling down.
but in a way cheering myself up.
DAAAAAAAAAAMYNE.
i was texting boyf den,message memory low.
w/o knowing,from the past till now my msges have hit 1000+.
WOW.haha.so before deleting i read the old old messages.
sumhow sum made me smiled.
and some made me feel real down.
i read it again and again.
den yes,i cried.
idk why.but i did.
sum may knw whose msg it was,sum may assume,sum may nt knw.(=
den decided not to del all,but unrelevant ones.
den i began spring cleaning as mum is alrdy nagging abt hw messy my room is.
den i saw my book of confession.
aft cleaning wich was jst mins ago,i flipped it one pg by one pg.
all those things i wrote.
all those things i confess.
&& all those things i stapled.
the drawings i drew.
i have like more than 3 pages of things i wrote abt particular sumone mths ago.
damn,bodoh sak.
that book holds alot of memories.
sumhow it witness alot of thing. :/
then i flip anothe page,wer i pasted the pictures.
the neoprints.wer i also pasted the necklace.
i cnt afford to throw the book away.cse not oni it hold memories,
its like a diary which tells stories on its own.
but fuck,it invites tears. :/

AKU NAK TIDO.

Yours Truly,
Heed

♫ 7:13 PM

Sumhow i thought today is SATURDAY.
damn,time flies real fast w/o us knowing kaan !
in 4 days time,NE camp.
In a week time,im turning 14 yo !
Jyeah Jyeah. take note of it dearies.
presents is much loved.HAHAHAHA ! Jk.(:
&& in less than 3 week, MYE. ):
Yesterday just stay at home and finish up my revision for Science.
Electrical circuits and all just turns me off .
Today woke up in the morning.
do notes for DNT test.
did my chores den bathe and all.
got ready,met Fy.
It have been awhile since i spent time wif her okaye !
&& i miss her like alot !
talk alot wif her ! Joke and laughters.
BOOOO , rindu telah dilepaskan.
HAHAHAHA ! shes now in abg room watching hindustan.=D
went to Cwp to buy sum stuff at popular.
"dayah kau nk notebook utk notes kau yg bnyk2 ?"
"ah ni highlighter banyak ! bleh highlight notes yg many2 tuu !"
HAHAHAHA ! sarcasms.
just say tht im HARDWORKING okaye ?
afterthat had our meal at LJS.
bazaar close rdy so went to Polar Puff to grab sum food for abg.
see how nice i am ? =D
walked home.
&& otw home,we saw ths really effing HOT guy la ok ?
he walked pass us and i went turning around.HEEE.
really hes hot. wif hes blonde hair.
MUSCULAR body.shades.
WOW kaperr ! (=
reached home and we mugged.
she did her hwks and i finished up geog.
left wif Homec notes.
Hist notes settled.
Geog settled.
Maths prac cmg up soon.
seems like ive settled down and is beginning to balance my time quite alright.
But ive nt been spending time wif precious for sum time.
Like Fy,oni today.
&& have nt been talking or miting much wif Boyf.
lack of communication ):
i just fear the same thing to happen again.
Though u said u understand. just hope for the best la eh dayah.
Had fun late night talk wif Gfs yest anw.
Farna mum is like so cute la ok !
haha.
"eh farhanah ade boyfren eh ?"
me and nat goes " ADE ! faisal !"
AHAHAHAH ! bustard ehk.
And i really cannot accept ah today sunday !
"Fy,today saturday kn ?"
"ah no.sunday."
"HUH?! lie sia !"
checked calendar."wow ! so fast seh !"
hahaha ! haiyoyoyo !
Kay schooling tmr mean Gfs and FUN ! (:
&& KAAAAYYYYYBEEEEEEEEEE.hahah.
i miss her la.=D
&& BOYFEEEEEEEEEEE.
pleaaaaaaase take good care of urself.
u jolly well know of ur health and condition.
please nomore of straining urself.
ure alrdy the best in soccer and everythng.
theres no nid to overtrain and cause urself to be sick.
i dun wanna see u vomiting and almost fainting infront of me animore.
i dun wanna see u having ur lungs/heart in pain anymore.
preeetyplease,take good care of urself dear !

Yours Truly,
Heed

♫ Friday, April 04, 2008 9:05 PM

Somehow,ive been OR im trying to understand.
how u guys felt and wht u guys are gg thru.
worst than me,i knw.
but sumtimes,i jst felt im ntg.
im used.&& sumhow,i swear i cnt be doing all ths ALONE.
im nt any robot who does nt have TIRED-NESS and pressure.
or wht i should say go thru wht u guys go thru.
im nt angry,im jst sad.
i jst hope that every sgl one of u could atleast show sum effort in helping me out.
even a lil deed is enuff.
or maybe,U GUYS COULD PLAY UR PART .
it would rly help alot.cse im beginning to break down.:/

TODAY IS AINT NO GOOD DAY.):
they day started real bad for sum reason.
as i met nat at the bus stop,i was alrdy quiet.
normally,i would start a convo and bcum very chaotic.
bt i jst couldnt jst nw.
i jst walked and kept quiet.
met up wid hidTWO and so i i walked infront.
all the way.den i saw that old chinese look alike man.xD
smiled and walked away.
sat infront of canteen and day dreamed.
everyone was concerned.THANK YOU.
but i jst said " ah ? ntg.sleepy."
padahal,padahal(:
so entered the class and jst kept quiet.
sumhow the cls was kind enuff to behave.
slacked till history lesson.i din wanna lose anythng out.
except the part ms choo flashed out those stories and pics wich made me cried.
or even feel like wanna vomit.sheesh.
Maths was like correction time.
bell rang off to change for match.i was cheered by my BESTFREN ee leong !
in bus,consoled rif.she had a bad day.SHE CRIED.
i was helpless but to listen and advice.
FREN,everything can be resolve okayy ?
off to game and we lost by TWO fucking score.
we know why we lost.
but it was a WELL DONE game girls.
really.it wasnt our fault we lost.we know what we know.
but lets SHHHHHHH! (:
&& i promise,the next time i bcum a defender and get SHOUTED or VULGUR-ed at,
IM GONNA MAKE SURE SHES OUT.
which means,DISQUALIFIED.
arse-holes.
aft match was 2.4km run.we were tired so it wasnt a well done.
at the end of run,went into open air area cse i couldnt breathe.
saw ZH so went to him.he got in 5th sia !
den i wanted to faint.
Jay caught me and sumhow gave me a very big hug ! hahah.
i was like awwwww.
kkay.no misunderstanding.he was saving me frm falling.
den met boyf.he came in 1st.
EE Leong went " wah ! ur stead power sia."
HAHA ! went back to sch and my leg was aching.
my ankle and knee was giving me prob so i went on limping.
i saw boyf vomited real badly and i went to him.
member step macho ! HAHAHAH.
ur frens were great boyf (:
So Boyf recovered and off we went to coffeeshop wif Gfs.
ate and chat till 730pm.
din allow boyf to send me home as i wanted him to rest.
walked home wif Sweethart and reached home.
now im sitting updating blog feeling really lethargic.
DAD,i need a massage !(:

BOYF,IM SORRY.
for how i was just now(:

Yours Truly,
Heed

♫ Thursday, April 03, 2008 8:29 PM

MYE STRESS la woi.

so yest was like okayy ?
i came to sch and expected to see fatin.
cse i was insisting tht it was all a april fool joke to knw shes in the hospt.
searched ard and i din see her.
and everyone was asking if i wanna go visit her.
i was like.
" serious or what ? no joke ?"
"sial,no la bodoh."
i was like waiting for the clock to strike 330pm so i cn go visit her sia !
history was like make me go vomit !
ms choo flashed the photo wich rly eeeew-ed me bt at the same time,
i jst wanna cry lor.
Math xtra lesson was like cool or what.
i manage to ans all qns in 30 mins and get it all correct.
"yes ah ! done ah gang !" me
"ure just weird.if only all ths was ur exam paper,hidayah u cn get a1.why test give me rubbish !" ms gan.
"how i know ? mayb i over-panic den all blanked ? ur fault wat. go walk bsid eme till i cnnt do."
"haiish.up to u ok ?"
HAHAHAHHAHA ! like srsly,i agree wif her.
released much earlier and all went hme got changed and met at boots and shoes.
boyf followed as he wasnted to visit fatin too.
get on 960 and off to KK.
i looked at her and i swear i cnt stand the sight of it.
no what,but i pitied her.
as weak as i am,i wanted to cry.
ard 7pm we headed to United Square.
walked around and headed home.
boyf sent me home.
reached around 9pm.

Today woke up.
&& i was REAALLLY sleepy.
home period.MYE schedule given out.
And as i count down,its oni 22 MORE FREAKING DAY TO MYE la !
i was like OH DAMMIT.
i could feel the pressure mayne.
PE ran 2 rounds and that smelly fertiliser was a natural motivator.
damyne.xD
MT was fun as always.
Me,nat,nad and atikah was like disturbing cikgu.
lolls.she loves us okayy ! =D
DNT wa slike stress sia !
my circuit had no difference from the reference but still couldnt get it right.
mcm toot or what.
Sci test was next.and i guess i'll pass. (:
Match wif Bedok South was postponed due to the bad weather.
we were in the mood wen the guards goo ,
" PEEEEEEEEEEEEET ! in !"
HAHAH ! had phototaking and we sure take lots of pics !
esp wif KB ! HAHAHAH.
dismissed early gfs and sum oter netballers headed to multi purpose hall.
had fun game of soccer baby !
like of cse,my group won ok !
HAHAH ! we sure do had alot and i mean alot of fun.
i almost wee wee due to intensive laughing.
HAHAHA ! tmr match , against east spring.
ALL THE BESST AH EH !
after tht , 2.4km run.
COOOOOOL KAPER joy (:
OK BYE ! im tired !

Yours Truly,
Heed

♫ Tuesday, April 01, 2008 10:59 PM

HELLOH :D
april fool huh ?
kay so i din sch-ed tdy.
cse i was lazy plus i had a pain in my stomach.
kay no joke uhh.So i was bored at hme and crank up a stupid april fool joke for gfs and boyf.
here it goes.
"dear u alright dere?"
i replied hours l8r.
"urm.sry to keep from u.ive been at the hospt since morning."
"huh ? wt u doing derE? "
"i went to the doc and he refered me to the hospt."
"so hw ?"
replied an hour l8r.
"rslts out.im warded.thy found sumthg growing on my stomach."
"warded ?! dear ure gnna be fine.i wish ts is happening to me and not u.and im sry for nt being able to be there for u nw."
i felt bad decided to stop it.
"Dear,im sry ! it was jst a april fool joke."
"dear,its nt funny at all to joke abt such thing.u got me all worried mind u ?i jst boarded the train to be there for u and nw i have to trained back to sengkang for my soccer.thanks alot dear."
i was like JHG(*YE(*&(*)_ , fuck u dayah.
apologised like hell and den guess wat ?
"HAHAH ! kay got u back dear ! kenekn org lagi ! but hey,i was worried ok. "
haha.so yeah.damn u boyf.(:
but whatever it is, i discovered tht i meant alot to boyf and he love me like alot !
HAHAHAHAHAAAA.
kay so he was angered abit bt we cool now.
&& i found out my scandal is hospitalised !
Damn scandal ku sayang , im gnna visit u real soon.
GET WELL SOON ! ):

Yours Truly,
Heed