♫ Friday, February 29, 2008 11:01 PM
HELLOH(:THURSDAY.got my ass off bed and headed for school.i wasnt well.escaped from PE with the consent from Ros(:fever.cough.flu.gastric=gastric flu.HAHA.MT was next.went to the toilet wif nad and nat and there i was vomitting.hah.school was okay.din go for netball.rushed home.got ready and off i went wif mama and sis.together wif wak yah,kak fana,bell to geylang.collected sis engagement baju.basically we went to buy things for sis engagement day.it was fun la.went to the sheng shiong dere.planned to buy things for that day.but me and bell went to buy CHOCS! like we going to pay for it jekk.HAHAH ! kay shh.after everythng headed hme and reach wround 10+pm.guess wat happen after i enter the house?i vomitted.yeah yeah.haha.and it was like EEW.ate medicine and slept.FRIDAY.skipped school.was very weak.in the afternoon together wif mama and sis,again go buy summore things for preparation.den go sheng shiong again.den me,kak fana and bell play ths game of identifying veges.HAHA.me ? i noe the basics ones oni lor.HAHAH.SHUSH.now and then i reaaly feel like vomitting.but hey,dun get the wrong idea yo.i aint pregnant okayy ! hahah.i shall now take my medicines.bye bye.
Yours Truly,
Heed
♫ Wednesday, February 27, 2008 12:49 PM
HELLOH(:yest was crap.big crap ohkay ?except for when i was ard my sweetharts.hahaks.i was high,and i mean it wen i said i was high.den i had no mood for lessons.annd i brought the wrong material for homec.i mean i was suppose to hav homec bt i brought dnt. stupid as i am.but i was lucky ms nadia was on mc.got back test paper for mt.annd i got 32/40.science i got 30.5/40.happy as i am ! ;Dhist was okay ?it was a very cold day.wore a cardigan.den ZH went, " eh girl,u tink u tall i scared ah ! u tink u wear cardigan i scared ah !"i turned around,shouted" i never say u scared rite !"ZH hugged the door.AHAHAHHA ! && as always , classmates cheer me up. ;Dnetb trng was a big big dissapointment for me.i was nt being able to pass fitness test,wen ive always pass it no mtr wat.i had no mood,due to idk wt.i let my emotion get over me and gave coach her most bad impression on me.i gave up witout trying.witout giving my damn best.i let my sickness control me.how could i ? got in for the school league and here i am giving shits ?all the best dayah.almost fainted,vomitted badly.headaches and i lied down.went to eat and reach hme.slept till nxt morning.woke up to feel vry tired,restless and sick.so i din go to school.den i face tht nvr-look-at-himself guy.jgn mcm phm ehk?haiish.discourage by her failure.hopeless as it seems.useless is her middle name.screwed up as she can be.
Yours Truly,
Heed
♫ Saturday, February 23, 2008 8:46 PM
When you look me in the eyes, And tell me that you love me. Everything's alright, When you're right here by my side. When you look me in the eyes, I catch a glimpse of heaven. I find my paradise, When you look me in the eyes. More and more, I start to realize, I can reach my tomorrow, I can hold my head up high, And it's all because you're by my side. When you look me in the eyes, And tell me that you love me. Everything's alright, When you're right here by my side. And when I hold you in my arms,I know that it's foreverI just gotta let you know,I never wanna let you go,cause baby, I LOVE YOU.
Yours Truly,
Heed
♫ Friday, February 22, 2008 7:10 PM
HAPPY ANNI love(:back back together and as long as possible :DPS.ILOVEYOU.hahaks !OKOK.so sch was alright.Debate went alright.off to semi !weeee !~netball training is back.fun trainings.intensive annd more tiring larhs.we have start training wif the Bs.best !Friends are great !(:Babyboy is loved:DFy is missed.&& i have sumthng i think i should let tht person noe.YES,annd OF COS,ure my FLESH,BLOOD,SKIN.kay im exagerating.xDbut reaally.i admit.past days u may feel tht ive forgotten u.but i din.i swear.i noe u do noe that im hvng sum tight schedule.&& I DO MISS YOU DEARLY.read that and kip tht in ur head dear.i may let u think tht im using u,im jst regarding u as my listening ear.but in fact,i love u.more than just a cuz.u noe tht u were my closest lil dear(:u noe that ure one of those i trust and love wholeheartedly.i noe tht ive nt been cntacting u but,my phone(s) is spoilt):even at any moment,u could just cum across my mind and ill be sad nowing im nt treating u well.im sorry kay dear? i'll VERY SOON ask u out on a date.HAHAH ! && of cse ure part of my needs,my jokes,my laughters,MY EVERYTHNG.I SWEAR WHATEVER I WROTE HERE IS FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART.it was ntg to comfort u,but to let u noe,i really do LOVE YOU !
&& to wanted,after those thought,ur words are true.mayb it was just my sensitive and immature part.annd i noe i too dun rly understand dem.i was selfish.annd about friends? i noe,cse ive gone thru wt it felt being dump jst liddat wen tht fren got new fren.annd tht kinda stuff.thank u alot for ur advices(:loved~ ;D&& lets pray tht ths time,it'll work.(:
Yours Truly,
Heed
♫ Saturday, February 16, 2008 1:13 PM
PISSED.i go for first come first serve basis.wth?u guys tell me last min.den now u say i cnt go for my fren's ?like CB ! && ya ?!they hav been the one,not u.when im phisically,mentally hurt,they will be the who notice it.they will be the one asking me if im ok.they will be the one there to listen to my shits.they will be the one advising,motivating me.have u ever did that ? sat wif me,and talk to me,as in srs talks ?they noe every sgl shits of mine,&& u dun.dare to tell me u do ? then tell me what kind of shit m i going thru now ?for godsake,dun act as if u care annd u noe everything about ths devilish daughter of urs !dun try to be the one who noes whats best for me.cos I NOE WHATS BEST FOR ME.i noe myself,when u noe ntg bout me.for mayb u noe what u see but not whats unseen.bz wif ur forever work.nah its ok.for us to live kn ?till to the extend wer no time to spend.whatever ok ?thanks for ur beautiful msg.THANK YOU.&& oh hell yeah,I PRIORTISE MY FRIENDS THAN FAMILY kan ?as always.i always priortise them.Like u,PRIORTISE UR WORK THAN ME !who else hav i got than my friends whose always dere,you ? FAT HOPE.my life hav always revovle ard them.say im rude.say im ungrateful.say whatever you readers or YOU wanna say,cos everything that happen,IS MY FAULT.always,HIDAYAH's FAULT !who else ? hidayah is the troublemaker.hey prnts,thanks for your sacrifices ehk.but thats not all that we nid.haiish nvm.YOU WONT NOE A THING THATS IN MY HEART.nvr did understand me,oh wait,YOU DO. :/HAPPINESS.-a particular person say," i cnt be happy."well actually,u can.like ive always say,its the mtr of NAK ke TAKNAK.happiness will not oni be there wen ure in rship.they can be there in FRIENDSHIP too.u have a wnderful circle of friends,fren.find happiness in them.then again it can be there in family,only when u have a perfect one.&& i noe u do.ur family is great,i must say.u can be happy when ur life revovle around wonderful frens annd family.the partner of ur life will appear,mayb nt now.&& that would complete ur set of happiness.thou is nt here yet,u still ought to be happy,always.if u wanna be happy,put everythng bhind u annd search for that happiness.&& u will.rmb ?NAK KE TAKNAK jekk.annd i noe u will be happy if u dun let anythng affect it.for example me ? well,i shall pray for ur happiness.ME-life hav not been great.&& im tryna be strong.for everything.for the things ive yet to do,i wanna do,i nid to do,annd i have to do.i myself is tryna be happy in every way.&& im tryna not let anythng affect me.but sumtyms,i admit,its hard.yet i cant give up rite ? when i go to school,its all perfect wif my wonderful classmates.thou u guys stress-ed me,u guys are still wonderful,nvr failt o happy-ed me.&& my FNHN,being in school and always around u gals are the best.then there is wonderful basketballers and netballers keeping me bz wif matches to avoid me from thinking abt any of my probs.then again,everytym i wanna stand strong on my two feet, there will be ths thing hitting me hard on me causing me to fall flat on the ground.always,then there is this problem gun to shoot me wif thousands of probs evrytym im back on track.Now,i really hope everythng could end and i'll be the one i use to be.&& im sorry to stabbed you again and again,to hurt you.its my fault i admit.pls do forget me if u wan to.but pls dun pray for ur accidents,pray for your safety.cmon,ur life.but if u dun,i shall be the praying for u.LUCKS(:
Yours Truly,
Heed
♫ Friday, February 15, 2008 8:53 PM
im sorry for being the reason for what is happening to you now.im sorry that it affected you so badly.i swear it was not my motive to hurt you.&& i swear im blaming NURHIDAYAH RAMLI for everything thats happening to MD DANIAL RAMLI.im feeling bad.):THANK YOU NATASHA FOR LISTENING.annd im having a big headache due to severe crying-s.
Yours Truly,
Heed
♫ 5:36 PM
Today is TTD ! hahaks !kay lameshits.i got my ass out of my bed today annd off to school.had a terrorists stimulation annd i love it !haha.for blah blah reason(:the teachers were hott in their uniforms.wengs.esp teletubbies annd that hot guy=Dthen there was food rationing.we were given cereals.i got cookie crisps !haha.den there was a drill.like i was damn stupid to think its real annd almost cried ?BODOH NYER DAYAH ! hahaha.then there was IPP acttivity.Scenerio: a poisonous air from senoko.i guess ?then we had to seal-ed the whole class.we were like so into it like shit.hahah.end up the class very dark.oxygen was limited.i had my breathing problem.almost fainted so i lay on atikah.hahaks.but i was alright.we all sat in a circle den shared ghost story since its for 20 mins.Ruihong was the best la !he scared the shit out of us.even miss choo annd ms lim was startled.HAHAHAHAH ! kay aft sch went hme.nat went to my hme to change.played bb again wif the basketballers.at ferst was like sian laa.den fun fun.HHA ! had fun.i played for awhile but den sumthg just chnged my mood.so i sat dwn so called "emo".haha.i hold-ed back my tears cse i wouldnt wan nad nn nat to go," dayah ?! asal ?! kau ok ?!"heheks ! && frm just now,the msg just keep playing in my head):i meant ntg.i din wanna do anythng.but mayb bcse i went through too much that i prefer my life ths way.wer i felt more relaxed.wer i felt theres more space.it doesnt meant tht u brought it upon me,i brought it upon myself.&& nw,i wanna turn things back to normal.i dun wanna go crazy at the age of 14.im nt gonna wish u for a blah blah blah.i just wanna say thank you for u know why.&& take care !(:&& sumone say , " friendship is much more beatiful than a relationship."annd i dinnoe what tht person meant.hahahah !
Yours Truly,
Heed
♫ Thursday, February 14, 2008 11:27 PM
TODAY IS VALENTINE.but i dun celeb it.like sumone say,everyday is a valentine !hahahah.HAPPY VALENTINE LOVES !so i din sch tdy.cse i feel LAZY.hahaks !skola bapak kau eh dyh ? =Dpast days spent my day wif my cuzz from KL.best la got their company.tdy would be their last day here.awwwwww):tdy got a msg for an invitation for a frenly basketball match.so yeah.went wif my cuzz.she sat i played.hahs.i was bored at tht tym.summore i jst wanna get those shitthinkings off my mind for a moment.reached.gordon,de jin,rey jie,zhong wei,mich,abii,nat,nad,farna annd zet was dere.we played among us ferst laa.half court.it was very fun ok !i dinnoe bb was fun.i had real fun.hahs.den got sum chinese guys plus girls asked for a FRENLY match.but they played ROUGH.wth ? they just snatch the ball from my hand.FOUL ok !&& sumthng happen.bacinn ! i was like squat dwn at the court,covered my face,din dare to look up.HAHA ! everyone was like clapping hands, annd do deir OOOO, AHHHS.haha.ard 7pm went home.den bath all go mum shp.&& nw im kinda sleepy laa.hahaks.so yeah.nytes !I MISS BELOSSSSSSS !belos,next outing plss ?
Yours Truly,
Heed
♫ Tuesday, February 12, 2008 9:25 PM
As i was sitting at the see saw just nw,it went up and down.just like LIFE.sumtyms up,sumtyms down.&& all i want is moderation..Kay i noe,SHUDDUP DAYAH.im talking shit frm just now laa.haiish.wt to do..alot of SHITthinkings.so school was alright ?i love homec.had sum moments of great luffsters.WK,new love(:other than ZH.HAHAH.&& EJ.&& GFS !they wont fail to cheer me up !TY !Science test was alright.but i forgot how to balance equation.HAHAKS ! forget to study.bacenns.den netball last match.Wif Fuchun.we won.was a cool match.hee.WE WON yaww(:aft tht chilled at coffeeshop eat.den me nad annd nat go admiral.play at playgrd.ard 7+pm go hmee.cool ah the chills.=D&& MY SMILES ARE REAL,NOT FAKE(:
Yours Truly,
Heed
♫ Monday, February 11, 2008 7:49 PM
SPEECHLESS.BLANKED.busted.i switch onn the radio annd they tuned all the emo2 songs.as in jiwang2.F.at ths moment ?wen fyqa started her day bathing.i started my day waking up early in the morning to recall wht had happened.to try figuring the root of it.bt i couldnt.with eveithng on my mind,i broke dwn.i gave up.i got rdy for sch.nnd off to sch like normal.as in yeah a normal kid.giving ppl fake smiles.atleast i smiled.tah la eh ?ZH cheered me up nowing i was in no mood.monkey dance.hahaks.i forgottent to giv the chers the C.D laa.goons.lalalaa.sch ended annd got rdy for the match.WRS vs CVS.29-15.we won alright ? && tmr last match for FERST ROUND.Fuchun.aye aye ! (: we are hoping to go to 2nd round la sehh.so yeahh.everythng done.SHITS.-reality,ure no longer mine,im no longer urs.for the best,we ended it.it may seems tht it has nomore value to me.bt it meant alot.jst my fault tht i couldnt treasure it.like catching a netball ball.caught it but let it slip away.
well whts dne is dne.
yeah u move on,for a btr gal den me ?
Thanks for the wonderful rship of ups annd down.
tot me alot of thngs.Thanks for the btr person i am nw.
i am wat i am tdy for wht uve dne to me,for wht uve taught me.
&& Thanks for being my best bf ever.
for being there wen i had noone.to listen to shits.to cheer me wen im dwn.
i'll rmb the days i angered u.i'll rmb the days i cheered u and u love it. i'll rmb the way u smile annd laugh.&& i'll rmb how u make me smile and laugh.i'll rmb all the things tht we've done together,the tyme spent wif u,cherished.i'll rmb too our jokes annd late night talks.
i'll rmb the way u kisses me.i'll rmb the way u hugged me.
i'll rmb those words u told me.i'll rmb the way u missed and love me.
i'll rmb everything.&& i'll always rmb the thing i love most from u,THOSE HEARTWARMING HUGGS. && also the way annd the day u ask me to be urs.
Lets jst say THANKS FOR EVERYTHING.
ONE whole year of greatness,love,memories wif u(:
&& but the stars are still up there.
&& thanks for the last kisses annd huggs.
Yours Truly,
Heed
♫ Sunday, February 10, 2008 10:37 PM
SAD.PISSED.SPEECHLESS.ARSEHOLE.dad,thanks."ddk kat umah computer jekk.rmh tk tau kmas ?"like hello ? i woke up early to do my chores.i washed those dishes.i sweep those dust.i hanged those clothes.i cleaned all those arses this fam had created.like wah dayah big F kaper ? of cse ah sia !if i did nt do all this,no one will.NOONE WILL.im already like a maid.but i din complaint,do i ?i was all patient.cse its my home.haiish.but just couldnt accept it ah wen u say all those words mcm tk bersalah gitu !ive done my part.but im not the only one living in ths so called home la ehk ?theres FIVE other.aye ?aft all those,i revise.nnf wen ur angels messed the house again,im sorry.i din noe(:&& i hope one day,i wont turn back to say ths to u.IM SORRY BUT I DUN CARE ANYMORE.URE ARSE,U CLEAN.
Yours Truly,
Heed
♫ Saturday, February 09, 2008 10:18 PM
HELLOH ;Dtodayy is a big BORE.chilled at home wif mama watch ManjaLara at Internet.till shes gone wif papa to rewang.now im really bored ok ?my fever has subsidised.but headache is still here.now im at home taking care of adek who is infected.LOLL.&& guess ape ?nowadays,ive been seeing couples separating sehh.i mean those who i see very loving..happy together.prob-free couple.actually separates from each oter tao ?really surprised me sehh.Even the loveliest couple whom i see were meant to be are no longer together.cool or what ?kay why am i posting about this ? idk.i just feel like it.but sure,im also afraid tht i mite be next.i just love baby too much to even think of separating.idk.i just love him ok ?annd i love yest convo.to know how much he love annd misses me makes me wanna cherish him more.&& as long as the stars are up there in the sky,baby.(:
Yours Truly,
Heed
♫ Friday, February 08, 2008 3:47 PM
HELLOH(:im sick rite now.fever plus cough plus running nose.very sian laa.kay soo.On wednesday.had CNY celeb.50-50 enjoyable larrhs.had the jigsaw puzzles plus the couplets plus lantern making.i joined the mickey mouse jigsaw puzzle.We finished 1st for the lower sec but second for whole school.hahas.cool kaper ? kay suddup.school ended at 11am aft the concert.tmn-ed kb wait for her ab.den off annd met them.nad went home.so me,nat,farna annd faizal off to 888 KFC to eat.me and nat kept giving the couple space..HAHA ! kay u noe i noe.aft tht went home.slept till ard 4pm.got ready things and myself den off to East Coast.Fam+Cuzz overnight at E.C.it was awesome ok ? we ate.we chilled.we joked.haha.at ard 10pm.the cuzz cycled to end of E.Ccool kaper ?i annd aisyah rode the double bike but was separated since we were unstable.HAHAHAH ! i cycled wif abg din,aisyah wif abg wan.sum parts were scary laa.den cycled back to the tent.farhanah annd fam was dere too ! soo we did chill too.at nite farna annd my cuzz together wif abg amin fren cycled again.aft tht relax and got many many stars lor ! (:listened to Didicazli song , Erti Persahabatan just invite tears.ok shuddup again dayah.cool.den i slept at 6 am woke up at 8 am annd played in the water !idk why but i felt feverish aft that.bathed annd slept.woke up annd they kemas2 ordi.went back , took medicine , slept.at nite tok to baby.i miss baby alot laaaa.(:kay now i woke up wif a bad headache.BYE ! off to bed again i guess ?
Yours Truly,
Heed
♫ Saturday, February 02, 2008 9:32 PM
I HALF SAD,HALF HAPPY.kind of moodswing la dayah tdy.so met up wif nat,nad,farna annd syaza at ard 3pm.bought lyd present den syaza papa sent us dere.we reached like ard 330pm.annd lyd havent sampai.BEST KAAAN ! haha.she came at 5pm u noe ! in btwin we play at playgrd.indeed it was raining.but nomore aft awhile.got our backsides wet going down the slide which i melayang jauh..HAHA.i love swings baby !=Dden more ppl cum..bbq-eud.cakes.nat mrajok laaaa.haiyer.bt nw ok liao.hahs.tskk !planned to mit boyf but had to go hme early.im so sorry bf):haiish.i miss hym like ALOT ok.reached hme at ard 9pm.kay now im beat but ps2 is calling so bye !&& i see u wif hatred.annd i was dissapointed at hw u were just now.didnt talked much.u were wif annd ur bf.like fine,go couple2 rite wif her annd ur boyfies.haha.loving eh krg td ? hug2 sehh.yeah i admit,mayb i am wht nat say JELES.but hey,i just miss ur existence.i still do call u my friend.idk.it was just a few mins tht u came to me.but den u just go off.like ya.u and me are like nt like hw we used to be.annd im VERY SAD):din expect things to be ths way.hahaha.i yakk long2 everyday abt us.i cried to see us drifting.i saddened to realise ure no longer existing.but i guess it doesnt mean anythng to u knn ?&& I STILL DUN BLIF U SAID ALL THOSE THINGS.cse i trust u.its just something that keep telling me ure nt that kind of person.annd dere somthing telling me ure a good fren.but idk alright.i just dunno.):I LOVE BABYDAN.(:
Yours Truly,
Heed
♫ 12:21 PM
I VERY VERY SAD !):woke up at 715am.rushed annd met nat at bus stop.silence at ferst.cse i din start to tok.cse i v sad.hahs.cse yest bf din ans my calls aft the 5 mins of hanging up.called like 3 times.no ans.waited for him to call bk.no sign.called for the last time.still no ans.so text hym annd off to sleep.well kind of.haiish.so baby,if ure reading la kn.cntact nat hp if u wanna contact me ok ?cse im afraid tht i might cntact u at a wrong time.so netball was ok.eika was late.to determine if she cn play against SNC,we played against B div.we lost by 3 points.so she cnt play for 2 quarters.haiish.B div had tournament wif SJC.they lost.nvm seniors !u did well thou ! (:den walked home.i v sian.going to lydia party.but i no mood ?):
Yours Truly,
Heed
♫ Friday, February 01, 2008 8:48 PM
I VERY SAD ! ):kay soo school is back to normal !YAHOOO ! cse boths teachers are chilled.i was pissed at how ego she was i cnt be bothered to gave her what we had prepared.so yoke leng gave it to her.then she continued teaching.LIKE FINALLY ! aft 2 lessons of i look ur face u look my face kind of lesson.wastage ! hahahah.so started off with Geog.annd as day passby she gets more lame eh ?haha.kay diam dayah.i wan ms shidah sehh ! im so gonna fail geog like ths):ok aft it was EL.sabo-ed eika annd HAHA ! shes out for debate.=DHist was next.it was alright.CE mdm chong nvr come.Ros came in.^^Maths did ok.but i dun understand ): fail fail.kay i mean PASS PASS ! =Daft that got CIP at 2pm.go put bags at nad hse.go back sch ate.me,nad,nat,farna.so went to blk 655.very bad..out about 10 units only 3 opened the doors):so eika was like just hanging the things at the doors.HAHAH !aft that went back to cls,reflections.ate at coffeeshop wif them annd off home.den now i very saaaad):many people keep coming to me to tell me what i was told, u say.
but i cnt believe my ears):
ive known u long enuff to actually accept it.
only if u say face to face to me.mayb i will.but asal seh ?
its just not u.what have i done ?
unexpectable.i dun wan to see hatred in u.
but u make me do so.but den again,is dat rly what u say ?):haiish.BEN ANND JEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEERRY.&& I LOVEEEE YOU BABY.i swear i do.annd im sorry tht i might have neglect u for the past days.studies,netb,u.im trying to juggle things.annd i dun have much time.24h/day is all ive got.i noe NETBALL,NETBALL annd MORE NETBALL is in my way.annd afterwhich i would be VERY tired tht wen i mit u,it will only be for a moment.annd wen we toked odf,it will not be long before i will ask permission to hang up cos im sleepy.im sorry ok for nt been spending real time with u.but im rly trying hard to do it baby.studies is a must.as so do netball.its my cca.&& U is also a must.baby im rly sorry if u feel im forgetting u,which have nvr crossed in my mind to do so.i dun wan angry2,debate2,fight2 can ?ILOVEYOU(:
Yours Truly,
Heed
