♫ Friday, August 31, 2007 10:18 PM

Yours Truly,
Heed
♫ 9:49 PM
hellohs !(:oh ! its teachers and staff appreciation day lah tdy .NYAHA ! kay im crazy .so go to sch super hyper , kn mickey ? x)reach school and my classmates was lyk ."eh dayah ! 2nd in class sia ! tyco . conferm !"-zheng han ."eh kau best improvement sial . 2nd ! "-atikah while her hand pkol2 me . SAKET SIA !u see . i pass kene pkol , fail oso kena . HAHA !everybdy was lyk congratulating me wen im oni 2nd ? HAHA !kay thnx 1E4 . ure loved.(:so assembled and all . netball was fun . HAHA . ms gan .FUHH !powerrr ! haha .Den we all cabot tgkk soccer . WEEE !hott hott ! haha . "dayah , kau bawa ice tkk ?"HAHA ! u noe i noe .x)den go back class . class was organised . gereek !Den ms choo came wif laptop for us to switch on music .Lagu gerek2 ! me , atikah , eika , zheng han was lyk high wor .de chairs in circle den gt space in mid .we all dance lyk nobody's business.HAHA ! best !So eat . pizza . sushi . YUMM !snacks ! urmmm ! HAHA ! kk .i lyk the cake part ah ! cut cake all . den eat2 .den wahh . cake flying sia . HAHA !All dun dare go put cake at ms gan face . all attacked ms choo . so chio . HAHA ! den ; " eh dayah . favour ah . go attacked her . pls !"HAHA ! den i go to her give her special facial .lol ! she grab my hand mahanye trying to revenge but cnnt ! HAHAH !farnie2 . den all see she ok all start attacked her . jahanam tOl . xDden she sae , " u hidayah . u wait u wait . wah . tsk3 ! "HAHA ! klakar !(:kayy den my turn kena attacked . basket .kayy so clean up . den i want go clean face ."cher go toilet ah clean up ""nono . nt till everybody settle .""eh cher . wan go up liao eh .""nvm . go hall lyk tis . nice . chio ."-_-"cher . dun lyk tis hor . u see my hand . got cake u noe . wan same2 wif me go up wif facial ?""eh u dun ah . i clean ordi . u go toilet go .""k thankiu !"AHAHA ! farnie .so go up hall . sat bside de alil grp all . wth . shout at my ear . HAHA .De concert was awesome . yeah .esp syarif . haiyooo ! ganteng ! xDoverall . tdy celeb was a job well done sia . gerek !had fun . aft dat went back GREENWOOD !wah . tears sia . i miss dem badly . met my cher and she looked at my rslt .she said she was proud of me . && wanted badly i do well for maths .haiish . and my classmate ! walao . jodie ! my bgf ! hug me tknk lpas .so stayed ard . had sum catching up .had real funtyme thou kejap wif old fren . && belos .sry tk dpt together td . i gtg .):den bersurai . met my parents at banquet . eat . go hme . waited for younger bro .den go out again . eat . yeah . i ate alot !&& guess wat ? babyadlina muntah at me !BOOOOOOHOOOOO !nvm . bdk kecik . bleh accept .laaa ! kla ! nk gi tdo . ngantok . k bye !Oh btw , im really happy wif my rslt ah .5As , 3Bs , 1E(maths)):really nid help in it . anyone ? aingg .improved by 10% . 2nd in class .serious speaking . unexpected sia .but ape2 pun . alhamdulillah .(:trying to maintain and improve for end of yr !(:; you cant tell me that you hate me , cos you know that hurts .
Yours Truly,
Heed
♫ Thursday, August 30, 2007 4:42 PM
hellohs !(:okayy . so tdy , i did not turned up for school .mum woke me up at ard 6am .felt lyk a big bang in my head .so since i planned to go to sch late tdy , i went back to sleep .put an alarm at ard 615 . HAHA . pathetic .but then din woke up . wen mum wanna go to werk , found me sleeping . HAHA !"dayah ! tk pergi skola eh kau ?""ahhhhhh . k ."LOL ! i bcame the lazy girl lyk last tym . MUAHAH !so tk gi skul .So slacked at hme now . everyone's out .Yest nite , met up wif fyqa .bought bbt and sat at tekong .the nite was beautiful . serious . kn fyqa ?(:so we were venting our sorrows and prob AGAIN .u cn see we are real close . share prob and dun care one .i guess . shes the one dat i can trust 100% .i mean . the one tat im comfortable to share everythng . personal and unpersonal .(:i seriously cn tOk to her lorh . && one of my wish was her wish too .we want hym , kn ?toking abt his condition . make us soo sad sia .haishh . so yeah . tok tok tok .both tk pkai watch . dunno wt tyme liao .den go hme . reached hme at 9pm .Haishh . nowadays . i dun feel lyk myself anymore .im nt the strong and cheerful girl anymore .i use to be cheerful in anyway doing things as i lyk .but now nomore . free from everything .free to do as i wish . thou im nt happy .im gonna make myself happy in anyway .but that me is gone . to nowhere .hati tk tenteram wif dunno wt reason .felt so lemas . lyk stuffed in the room for ages .its nt easy for me to smile anymore .everyday seem so dull . nvr as bright as it was .i feel so troubled . stressed . unhappy . damn !where is me ? wheres my real soul ? i wanna feel free again ! i wanna take a break from all this shit !i wanna be me again ! i nid my space ! my freedom ! my everything !i want things from the past tat make me smile back wif me again !i nid all those things to hold on and live forward !i wanna move on from this sadness . i really want to .im fucking tired from all this sadness . i want my friends to be by my side again . i want and i nid the belos .i miss u . i want and nid my family .ARGH ! y am i feeling tat everything seem to be drifting wen dey are nt , are dey ?haissh . kay im done . full craps aint it ?Oh ya ! 2 whoever trying to destroy her name by writting stoopid , idiotic comment on the MT room table . stop ur shit will you ? why rite dere ? why not come and face her , urself ? scared ? babi .nk kutok , jgn secare sembunyi2 or secare blakang org tu ah sial .kutok dpn2 muke die . BODOH SIAL KRG !oh ya . if ure messing wif her . means ure messing wif me .bodoh .; apakah cinta kite hanya tinggal sisanya ?
Yours Truly,
Heed
♫ Wednesday, August 29, 2007 10:04 PM
hellohs !(:kay yest .school-ed wif jay . actually nan drg2 den dey have to go to sch early .School was was oryte laa .Kayy today .Geog was klakar . HAHA ! Den P.E . supposed play netball at field .den my grp play soccer hancur ! HAHA !EL did compo while listening to music on by mdm adawiyah .Den one of the song temptation nk jogett .den dance wif zheng han . HAHA ! klakar !GS gerek . as usual ahhh .LIT gt back ppr . 17/25 . nt soo good atleast pass . den fail AGAIN . xDAft school , go homec . do halfway thru . TDO !haha ! went hme wif si hui .BLAAAH ! Klaaa . bye !; one day , i will kiss you goodbye .
Yours Truly,
Heed
♫ Monday, August 27, 2007 3:55 PM
U again hurt me . I went up like always to wait infront of ur class lyk i always do .
U used to wait ard dere for me , how late i was . But now , u went away .
I asked ard , but to see u walked away wif hym . U turned and saw me . But instead of stopping ,
u continued walking . WTF?! tell me . are u my friend ? are u really u ? u changed . i cnt see u anymore . i was at the verge of crying . i didnt had a good day in school hoping u'll be dere lyk u use to , to cheer me up . haissh . frens ? wat ? wen u nid me in a moment of sadness , boredom and nid sumone den dial up my num . cum to me . wen u dun . u left me out now . cos u gt hym to turn to kn ? cum to me bler perlukan jekk . tk den wat m i ? yeah . true wat fyqa said .
"i'll be there for u wenever u nided me anytym.u can count on me ." AHAHAHAH ! LOL !
its just a sentence sia ! easy said , nvr easy fulfilled . "friends FOREVER" wat is friend ? wat is forever ? THEY ARE JUST TYPICAL ENGLISH WORDS LA SEYY ! i have a circle of friends . but u meant alot to me . Is easy to make friends . to call others my friend . Its also easy to call long known friend a bestfriend . but , a TRUEFRIEND . rare to find . haiish . Gal , do u realise the gap btween us ? the space between us ? cn we close the gap ? haiish .hellohs !(:so school-ed .MT was orite laa .GE klakar ah .i noob seyy .Hist boring !escaped go toilet .Maths weeehooooo .HAHA ! giler .i today terlalu hyper .just wait ah .conferm jap agi ade je sumthg to upset me . klaa . nk tdo . bye !; im wondering wat will bcome of us .
Yours Truly,
Heed
♫ Sunday, August 26, 2007 8:10 PM
hellohs !(:k yest was great !haha .woke up early in the mornink.got ready to NETBALLUXION 2007 !haha . my sis participated in it .so gerek ah .I was a good photographer taooo ! xDAfter dat go Far East eat .Wahh all eat so fast cos damn hungry .Den sat ard there to wait for kak firza bf .Waited for hym to eat after reached .Then go esplanade to chill and wait for abg rizal .camwhore alott lor . HEHEE !Then he reached we went to the WaterFest by the BAY . greattts !The wakeboarding gerek sia !After dat decided to head home .Met up wif Afiqah , Jerman and Justin .Walked ard . klakar ..Then J&J go hme . Me and Fyqa headed to tekong .sit around and tok2 bout our probs .We even get carried away and at the verge of crying seyy .farnie . den luff2 den go hme .Today lpakk at hme . Klaa . gtg !; sesungguhnya dunia ini hanya utk sementara .(:
Yours Truly,
Heed
♫ Friday, August 24, 2007 8:20 PM
wats happening to frens nowadays ? come and goes ? sumone to turn to and left the one who have tried to hold the frenship strong . the one who tried to be there wen u nided sumone . the one who have been cherishing treasuring this frenship ? frens . abaikan the frens for bf . without u realising , we are drifted gal . im sure u dunno how i feel now . cos im keeping this to myself . im trying to let u see that everthing is fine . im trying to make everything seems ok . ive been very sabar . Hoping u realise and change . but u didnt . i was really fcuked up at the same tyme shocked to noe u left me witout waiting nor letting me noe . " i noe how u feel . im going thru it too " i tot it was just wat i tink and wat i felt . i tot it was all abt my foolish tinkink . but deres oter fren of urs who are dissapointed in u . u seriously ABAIKN us sia . u noe how dissapointed and hurt i was ?! i just wish u could wake up ! Not easy to tok to u odf nw . to see u ard now . to have u by my side now . k mayb im unreasonable . i shuld understand u have to luangkan mase wif ur bf . but does dat include abaikn ur fren ? k gal , u dunno im dissapointed . im going to keep tis from u as far as i could . as far as i could tahan . But one day . i hoep to zap u back to reality .hellohs !haish k . feeling better now tat ive released everything tat are in my tot .&& oh yeah . y ah ? ppl lyk to accuse2 me ? i noe ive done wrong .tp have de right ke to accuse2 me ? && its easy for me to forgive and forget bout wat oters hav done to me but its never easy for people to do so for oters to forgive and forget bout my mistakes . yucks ! sucky .K soo SCI gerek .EL being observed yet i soo crazy .Homec the needle poke my finger seyy !hehe .CE do hist . 7/10 for 2nd paper .Homec 30/40 .WEE ! HEHEAft sch go hme .BLAH BLAH BLAH .dalaa . chao !;apa gunanya mencri kesilapan diri sedangkan kau tk pernah mengerti akan isi hatiku .
Yours Truly,
Heed
♫ Wednesday, August 22, 2007 3:35 PM
Eh , HELLOHS !(:kayy , today is the 22nd August .what day urh ?NYAHAH ! well2 , unexpected . that sumone forget . hmm .((:K soo school was very the slacking .Geog was oryte .PE stayed in class and did what they say theory .HAHA ! ms gan say if accepted , PE would be one of O level subjt .coolness la kn . EL ok2 . Got 201/2 over 30 .Den science .gerekk . do ws . First 10 finib wif all correct ans got choc .Did wif atikahh . kekek sia ! for the sake of choc do so kanchiong .so kiasuu . HAHA ! aft eat choc sleep .(:I got 36.5/40 for sci . WEE !me , zheng han and celia got same mark .LIT did sum test . wth . gt 16/25 .Aft that go hme .Gt a call . met dem . sit at dewan . Ard 330pm go hme . && here i am . wanna sleep ! tatas !; i love u , ok ?(:
Yours Truly,
Heed
♫ Monday, August 20, 2007 3:35 PM
hellohs !Just school was kinda orite .haish . mornink miting was not really great .Assembly , FT period .MT was ok .I was damn crazy . "dayah , aku tau kau stress . tp dun force urself gini ?"-atikah .i noe i was irritating . lols .Geog was sleepy .k no . it was fun jst i was sleepy .sleep late yest .Hist test .tk rase i did quiet well . URGH !Maths go through CT paper .20/50 . FAILLLLL ! basket .Ms Gan was quite in gd mood so np .hehe . no lecture .She was all the way guiding me . so glad .(:Bell ring . headed to tekong .went cycling wif nad on faisal and her bike .gereks !den go hme . WEEE !Yest , aft tolong mummy at shop .Go watch movie wif Afiqah .Watched SECRETS .AHHH ! nk cry seyy . so sweet tao .&& i love jay chou cn ? hes effink cute la sia .my mr chou . HEHE ! kk da .dalaaa ! nk mamam .chao !; decision undecide .):
Yours Truly,
Heed
♫ Saturday, August 18, 2007 8:05 PM
hellohs !oh mummy , im so tired .BRIEFLY !!!!!!Yest ;Go hme aft sch . got ready den go to Banquet wif fam to eat .Den go hme . PujOk-ed dad go esplanade watch firework .agreed .So went wif fam and wak yah , bell , babyadlina and haziq .Weee ! Reached ard 630pm .Tot ard 8 sia . skali 9 .Waited . Camwhored . gerekks !Den fireworks !Lawa sia ! Got planet shape . heart shape .Babyadlina was scared but insist on watching . Den watch clap hand . HEHE ! cute sia .Diffrent religious same language ; "WAH...."x)So finib ard 10pm . Walked to Lau Pa Sat .Eat until midnight seyy .Ard 1am got a ride on NR2 .Sat bside 2 gay sia . EEEEE ! kk . mean .Reached hme ard 2am .wth . so tired . SLEPT !Todayy ;Woke up MORNINK TAU !got ready . go to yishun for netball .wif fatin , rif , aqilah , sis and de rest .Training gerek ah . lagi2 hujan .((:Aft training go banquet eat .Den me an rif went off to vent anger .Shoot ball . and hit balls .Den go hme , mit sis again at CWP .Go hme wif shaniq and sis .Lpak-ed . && here i am ..dalaa ! tired ah . bye !; i sense it all .
Yours Truly,
Heed
♫ Thursday, August 16, 2007 11:44 PM
hellohs !(:so many days nvr update .HEHE ! have been lazy , tired bz .tests ard mahh .&& 2mr homec test . wth .notes wif cher . -_-'So past few days have been quite orite i guess .hmm . Im having moodswings nowadays .&& i hate it seyy .tend to shout for no reason sia .So sch was ok la just now .No EL . Music project cmg up .Maths self revision .MT was better cos no naggies .Sci was gerekk .BLAAH! im sleepy . (:k gdnyte loves !; its all abt wat u say and wat u feel .(:
Yours Truly,
Heed
♫ Saturday, August 11, 2007 9:04 PM
hellohs!(:Im soo tired la seyy .Ok todayy , met up wif dem at 12pm .Rif and her 2 cuz Fi and Ida , Jay , Nad , Mich and Matt .Waited till ard 1230pm for Ms Nurfa .We then headed to Somerset .Ate , Walk2 abitt .Then to Bugis .Seperated wif Ms Nurfa . She went wif her fren .Went ard . walk2 . searched for the bagg .culdnt find . smsed aliff and he said at beach rd .coolness laa . so we walk2 dere shopp-ed .We headed to beach rd .Search for the bag and got it ! finally lor .Me , Rif and Nad bought it . wee !We gonna wear it on Mon . HEHE ! gonna put up badges on it .Our plann larr . Badges and keychains .((:It was ard 5 ordi . Headed to CWP .We even sang loudly a burfday song to Jay .&& he went vewie paiseyy . lols !(:Collect Jay's present . Jay was like ," walao .. i said no present rite ..""We nvr even ask u wan or not . nvr ask ur opinion sia ."GAGAG ! den he smiled and sayy thanks . Me , Rif and mich shared present . nyanyanya .Den walk2 . Bought sumthg . i like !(:Ard 630pm everyone go hme .yeayness ! I went to mums stall .stayed awhile den i feel so sick .Frm bugis ordi i felt sick ah . Bt jst nw cnnt thn liao lor .So go hme wif bro and here i am .wanna rest urhs .Hmm. Oh ya !Otw back to wdls , quite a num of thing happen in the MRT . hehe !Jay was standing infront of the door .Rif and nad push hym and he was almost out wen matt was in tym to pull hym .His face was super farnie lorr! AHAH !Matt anoder one . Hi-5 wif rif till the finger followed the door almost tercepit sia .Rif pulled it . "wahh ! my hand stucked to the rubber door!"me and hym den went ; "Moving Rubber ..."HAHAH ! We laughed lyk nobodys business lorh .Everyone look at us sia .Den got one makcik ; " bdk2 zaman skg . tkde sopan santun ."Den i was lyk wth sia . urghft ! watever . xDDDWell , was fun la todayy . ((:;im not perfect nor am i an angel , ok ? get it ? give me a break will you ppl ?!!!!!!*pics soon (:
Yours Truly,
Heed
♫ Thursday, August 09, 2007 9:15 PM
♫ 9:00 PM
hellohs !(:WRSS national day celebration yest was SUPERB !it was gerek to the max . nyaha !So met hym .Went to school .I loveeeee the parade . HAHA !dunno y but lyk best liddat . (:cool ah . k den went to class for t-shirt design .gerekk ! i love 1E4 to the max !class spirit was superb !(:We then chose Za'aba's grp shirt .The whole agreed that it was rather rabakk .cos we did it in 15 mins ONLY .haha ! unexpectedly , WE WON FIRST PRIZE !ahaha ! Eika was super hyper . lols .Then , performances .i loike ! it was sooo fun !I lyk the drama club and sec 5s .best !(:LALALA~!It ended . aww ! heh(:So went to met belos .LALA and BABY was not being able to make it .Wiwid came wif monyet . x))then ard 2pm me and rif kene go home .Then the rest dunno go wer .klaa ! tired ah .tatas !; when u told me that u loved me , were those just words ?
Yours Truly,
Heed
♫ Tuesday, August 07, 2007 9:33 PM
hellohs .(:Haiish , im not in the rite mood ah .Ok soo MT SUX TO THE MAX !well no , THAT FUGLY , OLD MT CHER SUX TO THE MAX !yeah !wat sia . I was lykk damn keepink quiet cos wasnt in mood ah ."awk tknk ddk dpn jgn bising boleh ?"wth sia ?"cikgu bised nk mampos sia ! favouritism !"-atikahh goess .HAHA! && i went maki-ing sia .Den durng grpwerk i was ask to change grp cos i was a distraction .wtf ?! i was lyk contributing sia !"knape cikgu anti dayah nk mampos sia ?"Den me and atikah was lyk dri hujung tanjung shout2 ."Dayah ! mau mati pe lu ?""tkdela ! ku da hidup lame . da TUE pon . tk lame lg mati la seyy !""HAHA ! mau gdh pe ?""lau mau . on !"HAHAHA ! kekek sia .seriously , as though i hutang u duit stare at me .nk teach uat hal nk teach ah sia .u hate me , i hate to the fcuking core !Science was loved .(:Eng , test . Mdm adawiyah gerekk !(:Maths . haiish !I know im gonna fail la seyy ! i noe i din do well .watever i revised came out but i din rmb a bit !feel lyk cryink sia ! URGH ! nvm .wat is done is done . haish .Netball was gerekk wif de dingdong . lols !Just had a bad headache aft 10 rounds of running . HAHA .nvr eat sia ! end early .Watch ganteng play soccer den go hme .Den go bell hse tke cam .Thankiu eh mister !(:Klaa . nk tdo ! or mayb shout the hell out of me !(:; can life be any better ?
Yours Truly,
Heed
♫ Monday, August 06, 2007 9:03 PM
hellohs .(:Changed my blogskin again .Nice kn kn kn ? NYAHAHA !ermm . wait2 . nnt org mrajOk .GARFIELDKU , TRIME KASIIH CHANGE KN BLOGSKINKU ! (:k toot .So school was quite orite .HES FUGLY , OLD AND BIASED ! URGH !hate that mt cher . totally biased .I was asked to sit at the front of the class just for asking atikah wat to do .Den k ah mengalah aft a few words .Den eika and fren ketawe LOUDLY , he tgkk den uat bodoh .i was lyk tooot ! "cikgu biased siot !"-atikahh , liyana and i goes .if u hate me , im gonna hate u even more .(:Then Geog , fun fun fun . HAHA !Zheng Han was such a baby . hehe !Hist . got back paper . 13/20 . i expected 15 !k tkpe . got paper 2 .Maths , 3 periods . BOMB !Meletup otakku !Aft tat go home . LALALA ! 2mr got maths test la seyy ! oh nono !k da .; sudah lumrahnya manusia tidak lepas dari kesilapan .
Yours Truly,
Heed
♫ Friday, August 03, 2007 8:15 AM

More pics uploaded . More pics at frenster !(:
Yours Truly,
Heed
♫ Wednesday, August 01, 2007 6:13 PM
♫ 6:00 PM
hellohs !(:Well , today was orite i guesss .Din go for PE cos was having fever .i felt so good !My class chairperson was soo concern sia !Love u people ah !Brought for me panadol .Medicine tym wake me up to eat medicine .wah ! gerekks . HEHE ! THANK U ! (:So blah blah . School ended .Got ready for the opening of the art exhibition .IT WAS A SUCESS !haha . i lyke the part they pop the sparkling juice .gereek ah . lols .Received loads of gd comments .Weee yeah ! Mrs kok was impressed .(:So help ard . EAT ! EAT ! && EAT ! hahaha !So yeah . after dat hang ard wif dem dem .Haiish . ive been tinkink wat ive done wrong sia .Lyk tis few dayys quite a no. of ppl angry wif me .Ignoring me . Wat i do ?Yg best , wen i ask sume ask to find out myself .Dun wan to sae .Lyk wadeff la ! haiishh . was i really at the wrong ?Haiiish . Its always easy for me to forgive and forget wat others did to me .But it WAS NOT AND NEVER easy for other to forgive and forget me .Not fair isnt it . Or mayb i was too soft ? damn .Im so fcuked up sia ! watever ah .Klaa . gtg and study for hist test 2mr . ; i agree that life aint fair . (:
Yours Truly,
Heed